~owh tough tough day!~

baru pukul 8:40 tp sudah terasa tertekan... Ops bukan!.. ter cabar..

i have to finish editing this 10 pages before evening.

my conference paper..first edit correction, second add one more findings of my study, then discuss on artificial intelligent and finally conclude. i need to email to dr koo for another flow editting... I CAN DO (ayat motivation) but i have another important matters to be attend which are

1) meeting with pazai @TPM for GOK updates. which i haven't done much YET... but need to submit it before end of this month. which is later by next monday.

2)meeting with hezri/alif for mawaddah web development.

i can do it.. i can do itt.. yes i can,, just have to make a first step.. which is... MANDI.. bersihkn dr dr segala kekusutan fikiran dan little voice inside yg ckp i cannot do.. mandi mandi..

till later... GOOD DAY TO EVERYONE WHO READ THIS.. .. mmuahh

to change or not to change

YES!! i want to change! when, NOW!~screaaaaaamMMmmmm~

• become faster in making decission,
• mengCLEARkn matlamat,
• bertindak pantas
• dan fokus

SAYA MESTI MENERIMA hakikat bahawa

• money is my freedom and key to my happiness
• sy bekerja dr rumah, dan MESTI berDISPLIN TINGGI
• i, ME, MYSELF create the exact amount of MY FINANCIAL FREEDOM, noone ELSE.
• cabaran is FUN, risiko is MoRE MONEy and masalh adalah tangga yg akan menaikkan sy!!!

dan saya HARUSs bersyukur sbb

• sy lahir sebagai seorg ISLAM dan mempunyai TUHAN yg maha pengasih lagi maha pemurah!
• sy mempunyai seorg MAK yg sgt menyayangi, menyokong dan sudi mendengar dan menolong memperbaiki masalah sy..
• sy berkahwin dgn seorg suami yg sgttt sgtt rajin bekerja, sgt menyayangi sy dan our baby..
• sy mempunyai seorang anak yg pintar, bijak dan gelak tawa nye adalah penawar duka sy... dan bakal mempunyai seorg lg cahaya mata yg bakal mewarnai hidup saya
• dan sy mempunyai kawan2 dan sahabat2 yg tidak berlidah biawak... mereka2 ini sudi berkongsi ceritera dan motivasi utk sy berubah

ALHAMDULILLAHH

Untuk berubah, sy harusla rajin membaca buku2 motivasi supaya sentiasa di ingatkn dgn perlunya bersikap maju dan optimis. Sy berada di comfort zone sekarang, tetapi dgn izin ALLAH sy mohon untuk jadi yg lebih baik dan lebih BERMAKNA!... sy mesti lakukan perubahan demi diri sy.. THE WAY I SHOULD TREAT MYSELF! i shud gv myself the best, not complainning about getting not-so-good things/treatment in the world..
I WANT TO DO IT NOW!


p/s: tq cik eyra mussfira for encouraging me :)

~time flies...

cepatnya masa berlalu... this picture waas taken on my bb first day. so calm n wonderful... but im not a mother yet tht time. i was just like having sumting sum new resposiblelity in my hand.. im happy, painful(of course beranak sakit) and a bit confused. y confused.. juz wondering how am i going to be a mother to a lil danish iman... a mother...

danish 8mnths dah mkn puree and bubur... my lil danish nmpk gmok sket. sbb mi dia quit kerja n jadik fulltime mommies for him.. mi bljr how to preapare puree, how to serve meal to bb, n how to enhance your skills. danish membesar dpn mata dan rasa nya tk satu pon mi ketinggalan, meniarap pastu angkat bontot sket.. main remote cntrl, mamam,, sebut miiii,diii,,,huhuuhhu..chumel sgt. rs tk puas tgk danish.. tb2 tupt2 danish dh berjln...

and pki bj melayu... so cute.. but mi rasa,, u membesar dgn cepat n i feel like im going to miss all this precious time. ..

humm wut next... danish ader gf? OMG mcm agaknye my reaction

~stomach cramp~

i hate it,, as i hate seing you wif that soury face,,,
as i hate seing u not talking,
as i hate u not smiling,
as i hate u tho as not much as i love u

hummm

saikotik me wrote:-

ayah kata, kita perlu ada cita-cita,

mak kata kita perlu ada cinta,

aku kata kita tak perlukan keduanya.

kerna, cita--cita dan cinta adalah kita,

kita berdiri dgn cita-cita,

kita bernafas dgn cinta.

kita berlari dgn cita-cita,

kita jatuh kerna cinta.


maka cita-cita dan cinta bukan keperluan tp kehidupan



i made this poem just now, right after i read my lectures note. i have exam today and i really feel stressed. beside this memorizing and understanding, a question pop up inside my brain.. y? y i need to pass the exam, y ineed to study hard.. y?

~happy belated anniversarry~

oh my, i forgot. my 2nd anni 2/09/09 mmmuahhh my hubby mohd nazri zainuddin

too busy wif all the submission and presentation.. also being a replacement claass teacher, i have a lot lot lots and tonnes to do. but im free now.. yeaa nk focus on exam and famili adn submission only..

sori d, mi lupa, but today im going to get u sumting nice, sumting togather, kebetulan nk raya, let's find some new clothes :d, hr tuh d blikn mi crocs, now im going to get u a pair of jeans and shirt :d shopping!

but first i must finish my submission. open ceklist

• final proposal with storyboard and flowchart for my ecomic


• isd documentation for my breastfeeding e-learning


• report for dr mai


• and petrosains report

chaiyo mi! chaiyo danish chaiyo d,....walopon mi je yg berjaga at 2am ni, skan bertahan smpi 4am nk masak sahur plak pastu. then pray then br tedo. bgn nnt pergi the curve! yeaaayyyyyy

okihh sampai sini jer.. :D

future mission. i want to open bussiness in my blog. :d

~alahai lamanya tak sambung~

lama sudah tak update blog. xda masa.. yup xberkesempatan memerah idea. asik perah susu aje.. tiw is 2nd week aku menjadi pumpingmom. takla maju, byk sgt problems.. stressssss sgt. smlm lg tension, lg tak dapat hasil. mmg smpi kemalam nk menangis..

tp alhamdulillah rezeki danish.. pg tadi dpt 3oz tuk smpn dlm freezer sblm g kelas.. dalam pukul 8. kul 12 dpt 4oz, kul 5 dpt 4oz. syukur tak terhingga sbb dpt sediakn susu untuk danish.

cuma sgt risau bila call jer taska, teacher ckp, danish nanges. :(( sedeynye hati nih.. sedeynye sgt2.. tadi masa hntr dia tedo, bl letak kt bilik taska dia bgn terus tak tentu arah.. bl tgk mummy nk gi kelas terus dia nanges, ahh bagaikan hirisan pisau kt hati nih. bkn mi nanak jaga danish, mi terpaksa ajar danish.. sbb kalo danish slalu kepit dgn mi, nnt mi takley nk gi kelas. kelas mi takley bawak budak.. mi smbg kelas nh pon sbb danish tau.. kalo mi sukses jd lecturer, mi ader byk masa untuk danish kan..sob..sob...sob...

humm.. nak gi tgk anakku lahh.. sanggup redah jln kaki ke taska demi anakku tercinta. tak kuat iman nk berjauhan dgn anakk sbnrnye,, lgpon dh 530 nih..kls hbs awal cuma nk tgk hubby hbs consultation. adehh ...

okies..gtg.. nk jemput danishku manjakuh.. my lil monter.. byeee